Drowned

A slow crack, rising up through fissures long since left and time thought had healed. Painful sores, ripped open leaving names and words once whispered when the dark came. Now just echoing with disregard to the light. 

Drowning might come soon.

There is no peace here, no thought to grasp to stay afloat. Even the wicked words are just mist, damp enough to feel but not enough to fight the feeling of the water.

Drowning may come soon.

Haunted eyes beg not to be seen, but there is nothing left to hide them. No words to soothe them, no touch to keep the soul at bay and off the shoreline of sorrow.

Drowning must come soon.

Here is broken, here is the isle of no. Living here, dreaming here, sleeping here. No escape from the tiring task of living. Every question asked, answered in no. Every answer needed, left hushed, dust filled in quiet mouths with stoic stares. The waterline begins to beckon. 

Drowning will come soon.

Soft strings floating in the mist, feel like walking through spiders webs. Caressing as they make flesh crawl, the closest thing to a tether. Holding back what must go forward, like little lies that once held hope.  

Drowning has…

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Moved On

I’m pretty sure I’ll come to mind every time you try, to replace me.  Better than to just erase me,  seeing as you constantly misplaced my trust… you see
So there will never be, a you and me. No never be a you and me.

This is what you did, you made your bed now lie.
This is what you did, you lied and made me cry.
This is what you did, now in your bed you lay and cry, for softly spoken rumors and not so well kept lies.

So you may as well, fuck in the dark, fuck with your senses and forget your heart. Name me in head with them in your bed, and keep your words of want left in you, unheard, and unsaid.

This is what you did, you made your bed now lie.
This is what you did, you lied and made me cry.
This is what you did, now in your bed you lay and cry, for softly spoken rumors and lies.

Have you forgotten my face? I know how hard you’ve tried. Have I forgotten the hurt? No, I keep the pain inside. Why did you bother? Why even try now? there was nothing there then, there won’t be anything there now. Stop the denying, your voice on me it grates. Reminds me of past times and dates so long past late.

Let go of the rewind and remember what I’ve said , you made this bed you lay in, this is what you did.

Yea you made this bed to lie in, from all the truths
you hid.

yea you made this life you live in, and without me

well that’s just how it is.

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Burned/Jaded

What is this? What is this? I feel the embers but taste no flame. No desire to start again, trust a new – no faith in you. Do I feel blue? Vapid or vain? Do I taste fire inside this rain? No, just simply not, no feeling of pain as my emotions lay quiet and just rot.
They are gone, just not here, jaded I am, inside me… nothing I fear.
Ive been emptied and gutted, and left for dead. No voices lay clinging -here- inside my head.
No turmoil, no tears, they’ve been washed away from the many years. Years of the same, same ole, same game. You’ll tell me you love me and Ill tell you the same. Then we wait for the fall, wait for the first to lay blame.
Who throws first stone and lives and loves again, alone?
Never a change in this method they will use to tame. Lies upon lies, mystery, intrigu√© and despise. What have I become? What have I become, I lay here un-screaming, not timid – just numb. No wishes to fight, no feelings to bite, no forethought of wishing that this might… that this might just be right.
I simply dont care – care if you stay- or if I leave here.
Many are lined, bide and begging for my time. Little do they know though, my heart no longer gives back want for the “love or lust” throw. No longer dreams of truest of loves,  no im aged and older filled with misgivings and mistrust.
Burned and jaded I walk with only me, here I am safe, and me, I let be thus this truth has set me finally free.
I dont hurt myself, or wish for my end. I dont have care for finding another lover or friend. I trust not, I want not, im all I have. Im all I got.
Is there another chapter? Or does emptied, gutted, hollowed, vapid and vain lead here, to this place burned free of any pain, and any care.

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Go getter goal setter, bitch you look like you joansen to get up in my boyfriends sweater. Girl you nasty low class see, you could never have, what I have b. Dont you get me? Am I not clear? Got you crying up in da corner as I stand near and leer. Weak with fear, you can’t pass this, all I gotta do is hand you a mirror and straight up mad diss. 

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Circle of ….

A feeling of being lied to, a question in my head that says why do I allow you? Can you, stop and say anything true? Do you even know the damage that you do? Oh wait truth is, you just dont care. Slipping in my heart through my panties with a mind fucking stare. Stop here, stop here, leaving you behind. Moving along from a place thats trapped in another time. Deep withen a rhyme thats where the truth will shine. Truth be told a fucking honor to behold. Not often to be given as that would give life to much a reason to be living. Cant have that, cant ask just to remain intact. How insane is that? How do you expect me to react? Fuck this and fuck that, fuck you and fuck me. God damn it brain will you just let me be?

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Sarah …..
Is galdeic and biblical 1500bc

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Our lady not of peace

Humanity oh the insanity, the inanity of mindful power comes closer with every passing hour. Painful in place mindless gut wrenching case. Cant slow the pace, can’t win this race. Faceless in space… mind space. Taste, your fear bring it in near. Keep it close as your raise for your life’s toast. Join the animals play in the flowers. Just one of the rest in lifes sin. No right or wrong if you want to belong.  Don’t think to much or touch to long. Those are the steps if you wanna dance in this song. One of the rest one of the best. Keep that smile on during the test.

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