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Circle of ….

A feeling of being lied to, a question in my head that says why do I allow you? Can you, stop and say anything true? Do you even know the damage that you do? Oh wait truth is, you just dont care. Slipping in my heart through my panties with a mind fucking stare. Stop here, stop here, leaving you behind. Moving along from a place thats trapped in another time. Deep withen a rhyme thats where the truth will shine. Truth be told a fucking honor to behold. Not often to be given as that would give life to much a reason to be living. Cant have that, cant ask just to remain intact. How insane is that? How do you expect me to react? Fuck this and fuck that, fuck you and fuck me. God damn it brain will you just let me be?


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A river clear

Today I had clarity a pure thought of awareness of the now moment . It was dirtied by blood and shame. Though no now moment should ever be attained without. No matter how slight or external the circumstance. As long as the viewer is aware the peace is attained.

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Lost or found?

Sometimes when you lose your sanity, your not aware you have done it. Not until you spiral about a empty room filled with clutter, and no idea how that room got in such a state. That it starts to dawn on you. What have I done? Though denial and insanity can be fun bedmates if you love them right. They take all, and I do mean all. Right down to your memories and ability to care about the downfall. All you are left with is the ideal.
To spin around a empty room, filled with clutter, and no idea how that room got in such a state…

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Now for something a little different

This is a writing experience, something new from your faceless yet ever omnipresent persona of insanity.

What shall we write today? A review, on the musical talents or lack thereof about the out of house activity this slave of mind absconded to early on the eve of last night. So for the constant activity of mine to remain nameless and unknown ever so, I shall not use names. Merely places and sound to give a bit of structure. I also shall review them as I feel fit; my grandmother once said if you have nothing nice to say after all… it is best to say nothing at all.

First up is first off, this first band was not even named on the docket, which I shall say is a sin. I found them to be one of the liveliest bands of the night. The performance given was immaculate for the most part. Very professional set of men in this band, the drummer at one point lost his stick and without missing a beat he grabbed another. I enjoy this level of performance as I’m sure would anyone. Now how about the actual music you ask? One word, talented, the riffs and keyboard really made my night. The sounds for the most part where so melodic and enrapturing that I felt under spell for the majority of the time they were on stage.

Many times throughout the set I felt as though I was watching a jam and not an actual pre-ready set list. This was not a discredit to them but rather an assist. You feel as though you are watching a group of musically inclined geniuses creating before you and for you.

With that said, it does need to be mentioned they did at one point veer off into some unknown place in their minds that did not conduct well for a fluid experience. That was about the time when one of the ballads they had created had an awful (to my ears) buzzing droning sound for the whole refrain. It was for me needless to say not pleasant. Though over all I would have to say I enjoyed this part of the show. Thus I give a rating of;

3/5 Great potential

Now on to the next, I have to admit I’m not a connoisseur of this genre of music. So I cannot talk about the technical sounds and skills of the performers. Rather though just the feeling of it to common man who just enjoys in good taste a variety of sounds.

The band now up on my writing chopping block was the headliner. The sounds these men were making was astounding and yet clashing. Overwhelming yet comforting in the chaos they exuded. They did not make one want to jump around, but rather to stand and stare in awe at the skill and intensity of what they put out. I could not take my gaze away from them. Though it was confounding to figure out which artist you wanted to put your attention on. They all played with such emotion and unguarded lust for their sound it strikes you mute and unable to concentrate. I can’t say I have ever heard music that was so in-congruent yet so fluid. I could not find a beat to nod my head to like one should do at these progressive metal shows. I also did not care; this music just takes you somewhere else like you’re in the middle of a storm of insanity just watching the wind fearful it might take you, yet resentful if it does not.

If I had to get nit-picky with this set I would only be able to say that the start was a bit slow, and draining. This was mostly due to technical issues if my perception was valid. Though more often than not, it’s not. I can say however once they did start and the spirit of their muse infected them it became clear rapidly that they knew what they were doing. All in all worth seeing, and worth seeing again so my rating is;


Now excuse me as I go add some new music to my little audiophile library.

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Lovers without benefits

Shaky character a inert flaw, giving righteous indignation before a upcoming fall. You think you know better and that stands a fact, but the harsh cruel reality your more fucked up then that. You can’t pull then push and expect me to stand, honestly where do you expect my heart to land? Not at your feet no that won’t work. Not when your hiding around with comments that hurt. Tell me this then tell me that, expect me in your lap with your ” just having frivolous fun fact” to put faith in you, when you’ve shown none in me? I’m sorry at what part did you think me truly fucking crazy? Sorry nope, I’m smarter then that… Won’t let you back there with the knife if you don’t have my back. So I guess that’s all, I was trying to say. Don’t mix in your heart when the boy just wants a lay.

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Act 1

An artist of bullshit a master of manipulation, a grin given before a distinct yet outstanding revelation…. Calculation, mass sensations taking over thoughts and occasion. Reveling in disaster oh yea, your the master. First class actor, tricked me here to bring you there. Walked on over me without a care. Evil fucking stare how dare, how dare, how dare I let you do this. That’s the real crime, that I didn’t value myself in time. Fucked up little boy playing so grime. Remind me why I let you in my mind?
Weak, no retreat time to face the real foe.

Thats the one staring back at me in this mirror like a confused and hunted deer eyed doe.

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Done to me as done to you

Focus, clarity, trying for these, but a new wave of sickness can bring me to my knees. Lost in thought without any perception. Just sick in my heart from old and new deceptions. To blame and be blamed to shame and be shamed. That is the point of this whole losing game. We won’t stay the same, even then friends whisper now hate for my name, but who’s fault is that? Not nearly my own, when you go and weave stories of how I tried to steal your throne. That I held you down when in fact you just lied, told me I was the one with her still at your side.

Now the tables will turn and it’s your mind that burns. Will the unease creep slowly? Will it attack you at night? Will you toss and turn awakening with melancholy enhanced fright? If no is your answer then perhaps time will tell. For another has my attentions and soon i will bow to his will. A truer intent all cards on the table I must find myself quickly lose it all so unstable. This game I don’t play and I wish it weren’t true but for me it seems now I must relive life…. as you.


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